Nothing to say

Well, friends, it’s finally happened. I’ve got nothing to say. (Stop celebrating!)

Well, actually, there were lots of ideas floating around. I thought about writing about the older woman I stand next to in choir who asked me a highly inappropriate (and hilarious) question on Sunday, but figured that post would get mean way too quickly. I have to pray for patience with her sometimes, anyway.

Then, I thought about writing about the things that have been going through my head in regard to my faith, but those things haven’t quite found the words to speak yet. I don’t know what God’s doing or why I’m at this point of being spiritually tired and always begging with words from Mark 9, “I believe! Help my unbelief!” I feel like I’m at the low point after the mountaintop experience, at the bottom of one of those big hills on a rollercoaster. And I know with every fiber of my being that I serve a God who is always faithful and doesn’t go back on His word. I’m finding solace in 2 Timothy 2:13 these days: “If we are faithless, He remains faithful, for He cannot deny Himself.”

I thought about blogging about work and the craziness of the past week, including Black Friday when 100 people across the corporation lost their jobs because of economic reasons. We have a meeting with the VP over our division later this morning. It’s like working among the living dead around here, all of us struck with a deep sense of survivor’s guilt.

I could have talked about yesterday’s presentation to various higher ups regarding the magazine I edit. I talked myself into being nervous right before I went in and have no memory of what exactly I said. But all went well, the redesign was well received, and people said nice things about me and my team.

But nothing really profound is coming today. I have no funny life stories to relate, no dispatches, no tirades. I love words and today they fail me.

So come back tomorrow. Perhaps the gift of gab will have returned. In the meantime, if you want to talk, call, e-mail—heck, write a letter and mail it! I could use a little cheering up.