A prayer for Monday

Some days, writing this blog is easy. Some days I feel anything but inspired.

Today is one of those days. I feel a bit out of sorts, scattered, unable to capture a thought and write anything coherent or valuable. So today, I’ll just write what’s on my heart, which is a prayer. I’m going to break my silence about something I’ve been doing for Lent and tell you that one of the things I felt called to focus on this year was the amount of “noise” in my life: radio, TV, thoughts that I let into my mind and grow. So I committed to a time of silence and rest each day when I could focus on God. Part of that has been turning off the radio in my car on the way to and from work and spending that time in prayer or seeking to shut up and listen to God. Here’s a little of what’s on my heart today:

Father God, You are good. I just come to You today full of anxiety and stress about so many things. Jesus, my prayer is this: that I am wholly Yours. That my life is marked by you and that I am known as Yours. I don’t want to be someone who says she loves You but isn’t obedient. I don’t want to go through the motions. I’m either all in or I’m out. And today I declare that I am all in.

When I was a child, Lord, You called me. All I can say is that I know in that moment You had orchestrated everything and I felt this overwhelming need to respond. I could choose to ignore You and do what I wanted, or I could say yes. And I said yes. And even though there have been those moments when my “heart and flesh have failed,” You have never left me. You have had Your hand on my life and I praise You. I have doubted You; I have doubted Your salvation, but in the end, I can’t deny that You called me to something different in that moment and I am Yours. I belong to You. It’s always been about You; it’s all Yours. My life. My hope. My all. You make me someone different. You are good.

Thank You for the reminder of Your overwhelming love, Father. Thank You for calling me in to fellowship with You. Thank You for this day and this hope. Help me to live it in obedience to You and to shine with the light of Christ. You are good. You bless abundantly.

I love You.

May I live that prayer today.